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If this doesn't make you smile (or emote in some way), you have no soul.

Our final concert for the MCC this year has the theme of "Why We Sing." I couldn't help but to think on the songs that we'll be singing this concert, how their words and the music has so deeply touched me, the entire time I was watching that.

I always get a little choked up when I sing Joseph M. Martin's "The Awakening" most especially at the the lyric, "May music never die in me." As much as I bitch about the group and how I sometimes feel out of sync with everyone there (spiritually vs musically), I feel blessed to be able to raise my voice in song every week. And to perform the music for the people who come to our concerts.

May music never, ever die in me and forever let my spirit sing.
ikyrian: Naruto - Iruka (...buh?)
...wait, it's going to cost how much?!

SO, our chorale was one of many groups chosen to sing at Carnegie Hall in New York City in June 2009. While it is a great honor to be chosen, I can't help but feel just a bit...gipped.

The chance to go stand in Carnegie Hall and sing for four nights costs $590 NOT including mundane things like a HOTEL, TRANSPORTATION, and FOOD. You know, the essentials. We were told that it would cost on average about $1100 just to stay for the four nights in NYC. Throw on top of that transportation and food, I'm looking at a bill of upwards to $3,000-$3,500 if not more.

Good GOD, isn't there going to be an audience this thing?! How come we have to pay so much just to sing in that building?!

My question for you all is this: should I do it?

That's a hell of a commitment of funds that I may or may not have when the time comes. Even if I started saving now, I have so little disposable income that I don't even know if I would have saved enough to go without maxing out my credit. Also, I'm not planning on being in the area by June 2009. While I'm sure I'd still be able to go if I wasn't apart of the Chorale so long as I paid my own way (I don't believe we would get our music early to start looking at it), I'm not sure I'd want to in a year, you know?
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Ok, remember me lamenting my life...wait that's not specific enough.

Hmm. Ok, remember me talking about the choices ahead of me and how I really wanted to get out of this place and yet at the same time I wanted to stay because the MCC has the chance to sing in a super spectacular awesome place. And then called it "Kennedy Center"?

I meant Carnegie Hall. Fucking Carnegie Hall. Jesus.

We now have two composers wanting us to join for the 2009 season and sing. Unfortunately the concert itself is split into two halves and both are in opposing halves. If we make it well, that's one helluva good reason to stay right there.

If we don't?

Fly like the wind, Bullseye!
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Though I made the decision to start looking for a new job primarily in the VA Beach area, I find myself with conflicting desires.

On the one hand, I could possibly have a job in a place close to one of my most favorite places in VA and be near very dear friends whom I miss terribly.

On the other hand, there is the Chorale who has a chance to sing at the Kennedy Center next Christmas season thanks to Mark Hayes. The Kennedy Center. This will probably be my only chance of doing something so awesome. But maybe I hold that place in too high regard.

It's odd that the Chorale has so much pull on me, especially now that we are doing our third all CHRISTIAN concert in a row (well, almost all Christian concert - we're singing the William Tell Overture. Yes, you read that right. We're singing the William Tell Overture.) That's three out of four concerts that primarily focuses on Christian music.

This is not why I signed up with a community chorale. If I wanted to sing Christian music I would actually attend church and join the choir. But I don't want to sing this music. And it's not like I despise the music or Christianity. It's just that I thought by joining a community chorale, I would be able to sing a wide variety of music. That isn't to say there isn't any variety in the styles of Christian music, but there's not much variety in the theme of Christian music.

Our first concert was awesome. We did it, literally, in the style of a 40s/WWII radio show. We had an announcer, skits, commercials, sound effects, an "in studio" audience, the whole works. It was fun, light hearted, and best of all secular. It set the bar to what I thought we would be doing each concert and it set that bar so high that I don't know if we'll ever surpass it.

Don't get me wrong, we've done some beautiful music. But there is other stunningly beautiful music that isn't about Christianity that I had hoped we would explore. And I'm highly disappointed that we're not.

So why would I let this group tempt me, even for a second, into staying in the Northern VA area? Why does it hold such sway over me that I would consider giving up one of my longest, most desired dreams?

The potential maybe. This group has so much potential to do so many great and wonderful things vocally, publicly, and yes, even spiritually. Every single concert that we've done this year has been a "Concert with a Cause." This is where we select a charity or struggling non-profit and ask that members and guests donate to them. Through our efforts, we've managed help out in the lives of hundreds of men, women and children, especially when they needed it the most. We often go around to retirement homes and lend our voices to those who can't make it to the concert.

We've done so much in our community already. But we could be doing so much more in our community by appealing to a wider audience by not focusing solely on Christian music.

Maybe I only want to stay because I hope to one day see a time when the group isn't so closed off.

And maybe because of the Kennedy Center.


Aug. 31st, 2007 06:59 pm
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I made it! The audition went TERRIBLY, but I still got in. My sight singing sucks so bad. I can to the rhythms, I just can't do the notes. Not even giving me a starting notes helps...;_;

So now my Tuesday nights are going to be eaten up by the MCC. I'm quite looking forward to it, along with the rest of the season, which lasts until May. One thing I haven't mentioned yet is that almost everyone is at least ten to fifteen years older than me. There's maybe five of us that are between the ages of 15-25. I find myself, once again, in a group where I'm (one) of the youngest people in the room. It makes me nervous, because I know I'm young and very inexperienced in all of this. To be in a room where it seems almost everyone else has had a lot of practice with this sort of thing is nervewracking. And my mom's piano hasn't been in tune for years, so I won't be able to get much practice off of it. *sighs* Also doesn't make much of a group for people to hang with. My ultimate goal in life is to find someone who isn't a gajillion miles away or my boss that I can have as a real friend. And I'm not talking about an SO (though that would be nice too...) but just a friend. To be movie buddies with (who isn't my brother) and to hang out and share interests and just, y'know, be friends.

I'm lonely.
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So! I finally did it - I joined the Manassas Community Chorale for their 2007-2008 season. Well, sort of. I still have to audition, which is tomorrow night, but I'm sure I'll be fine. Even if I am audition with the Star Spangled Banner. (Oh, so not my choice, but since I don't think I could learn a show tune in a week, it's all I got.) But I went to my first rehersal yesterday, and it was a blast! We're doing a show called "Thanks for the Memory" and it's all show tunes like "All Aboard!", "Can't Help Lovin' Dat Man" and "Don't Sit Under the Apple Tree".First concert is in October. One of the concerts is at the Bruton Parish Church in Williamsburg. I'm really excited about that one.

This is my first time ever singing in a SATB chorale. The first time the basses hit a truly low note, I shivered. It's also the first time I've ever sung in a chorale this size - up to 80 people! And everyone that I've spoken to has been very nice.

ANYWAY - I FINALLY have an answer to my skin problems. It is allergies. But not to the ferrets (yes!). I'm allergic to shellfish (SUSHI, NOOO!!), artificial sweetener (COKE ZERO! NOOOO!), dustmites, and cockroaches. The moment I stopped eating sushi, crab meat, shrimp, scallops, calamari, you know, all the GOOD stuff from the sea, and stopped drinking Coke Zero and chewing sugarless gum and well, all diet soda really, the swelling and the horrific rash went away. IN LESS THAN A WEEK. I still have bouts when I forget about the newfound allergies and go out and get some Korean sushi (that was very very odd...) or eat some calamari the hives come back. Stress causes the hand eczema.

In fact, last night was a little get together to welcome new members to the MCC. There were some brownies and these really tasy chocolate chip/peanut butter cookies. And I had a few because I didn't get dinner that night. This morning I woke up swollen and my hands had new vesicles which tells me that one of them probably had Splenda in it. Lovely. I guess I can never trust a bake sale again. T.T Nor a sushi bar. Wah.

I'm also currently living at my aunt's house. Technically I'm house/cat sitting, but really, I'm enjoying the freedom of living on my own. Throw in the ferrets and it'd be a grand ol' time. It's really time to move on from where I live now and seek out greener pastures. Can't go too far, tho' cuz I just plunked 63 in the MCC so I should at least stay the year.

Still considering going back to school. But it took me a year to decide to join MCC so I figure it'll take me at least that long if not longer to figure out what I REALLY want to do. My current field is HR and I have to admit, I'm not really loving it. Practically speaking, I wouldn't mind going into real estate, but again, practically speaking, with the down turn in real estate this isn't the time (or the place) to be trying that sort of thing out. Be nice just to get a better paying job so that I could start making a dent in my student loans instead of just barely making the minimum (oh, hey, that reminds me...). My dream would be to go back to school for art and combine my mad history skills and not so mad art skills (it's something that I really need to work on) and draw stories for a living. First I think I should start taking art classes, especially anatomy. I suck at that like whoa.

But the real estate thing comes out of my love and true desire to own an old Victorian with a turret and a wrap around porch. The ones I remember best, and there are a few around here, there's one that I would kill to have (mostly to get the money to afford it, heh) and fix up, but the ones I remember best are up in New York. I loved driving passed those houses and wondering why we didn't live there. The answer to that question is all to obvious (uh, poor. And - Army brat). And watching a lot of real estate shows with my aunt. Seriously though, I think that would be an interesting and rewarding career. And I don't just mean financially, but personally. Helping people find their dream homes. Helping new families start out in a new house. Am I romanticizing it? Hell, yeah. Would I be nervous as hell all the time because I'm shyie-mc-shying-ton? A no brainer. But still something that I would dearly love to get my hand in. Don't quite know how to do it, but I would love to learn how to try.

But, as Denise may remember, my wishes and wants change like a cross dresser on speed, so who knows what I'll want in six months? I'm all kinds of crazy like that.
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Back from the hospital. They couldn't find anything wrong with him, but did stress that he did need to follow up with his regular physcian. [livejournal.com profile] cancerouselflvr and [livejournal.com profile] selenityk thank you for your thoughts. He's upstairs now, resting.

I'm currently sitting here watching a kdrama named "Bad Couple" and it's amazingly addicting. I keep getting caught up in these things, and then abandoning them half-way through when the stupid gets to me.

I've been thinking a lot about joining the Manassas Community Choir. I've been playing the CD of my semester in Chorale at RMWC, and I miss singing terribly. They have open try outs in August and I think I'm going to do it.

I've also been thinking about one song we sang, "Robert Schumann", a lot lately. I find myself humming it at odd moments during the day. I hated it when we sang it, but now I find it growing on me. I guess it's because of all of the reminising I've been doing about R-MWC and the days gone by. DD will be going to college in five years, driving in three with JJ not far behind her. Where did the years go? I'm ten years older than her and she'll be going to college soon (sort of?)?! What happened?


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